Monday, August 24, 2015

since last resort.

Aug 24, 2015

dreamt of Japanese murdering. in dawn dream, some Japanese girls likely actors I followed in google+ appear. some of them fell into love and let me admire. then saw gangsters in Japan. a short boy commanded his pals throw a victim into lake, then electricized the water. the victim likely shocked and paralyzed. when crowd approached to the crime scene, I woke up and don't know death end or just pains as punishment. yesterday my kid brother contacted me, first by sms asking if I need to buy anything on him. I blamed him always likes to do the less money concerned task, rather than directly give me loan. God, I don't know where his mercy came from, but I told him my review of his bravo: 3 times saved me from asylum by led me out of the insane treatment there. I said he doesn't owe me but I owe our dad for his late youngest boy, my kid brother and his helping hand. then my brother called in, allow my detailed explanation how my life wonderful, meaningful and thankful. after the conversation he dropped me another ¥2000 in a year. I paid back my credit with the aid at once, left less than 9,000 on account yet to pay, but minimum of the month covered. last week I first time realized I need slow down my living rhythm to outrun a marathon to see out my son's growing up, till his marriage, his social presence. I had tried to present my son best of mine, it more or less exhausted me. aging put me into more and more naps. but I need a strategy to outpost our situation agile around the full journey on the earth before we settle in God's shine. every day bites me, maintains me in hope and endure. I need plan to cope the worn out. God, dad, I still in faith of my new family, my girls and my offspring arriving. grant me Royal China to home my family. bring me insight upon development of my business, democracy of China. thx, dad, this cool morning before breakfast spiritual.

Aug 19, 2015

dream of vocation. dreamt being a writer works with colleagues. then a girl newly joined.her handwriting is awesome, but only me appriciated. she makes every Chinese character glows in its center, like a ripple there. then dreamt of my writing procedure which later turns successful. these weeks mostly puffing busy. I finally setup all newly equipped gears mostly purchased from united state working, except chromecast which unable to connect google to update its firmware, nor casting functional. China surveillance formidable choking, prolonged my efforts to activate our cherished google products. the most exciting for me is woz equipped with dell chromebook 11 touch, which likes a gift celebrates son's independence/maturity. while in woz's view, he mostly cheers up by the new nexus 7 tablet, whose brand new android 5 interface, like google now, attracted any potential mind about artificial intelligence. it also rid him off frustrations on his old intel cpu asus fonepad which quite some cases incompatible with android games in google play. now the intel based tablet shifted to me, and I glad to experience a portable touch pad. since last Sunday I started to setup google services on it and now mostly ready, excepted google play store deadly blocked.God, so many unease upon overseas purchases and PRC's customs' seizure, now all fautless arrived under China ambiguous arbitrary prohibition. thx, dad, now my debt to bank mounts to more than ¥20,000, all my credit cards near stalemate. grant me freedom of financial aplenty.grant us lifestyle we enjoy so far. God, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my family, my girls and our offspring under most glorious dome. in coming monthly gathering in the week with my son, woz, Hope of China, God of Universe, enrich us with affordable shopping and delicacy. thx, dad God.
Photo Description: a late summer dusk, woz with his proud dad's companion skated in his mom's community. past month witnesses successful overseas purchases as gift for his growth.
Photo Description: a golden dusk on way benzrad daily jog after dinner, near QRRS front plaza.

Aug 8, 2015

dreamt of respective leader in QRRS.::this week my son stayed with me in my QRRS dorm, for his mom again traveled. I subscribed boarding with canteen and lunch contractor for a week, cost ¥170. the lunch server accompanys his son tour on Tuesday so we dined out 2 days before woz returned to his mom's custody. his mom actually returned on Friday, earlier 2 day than exclaimed. my son played video games, watched web TV a lot. he more and more askes my companion in game and entertainment, so I gave him a lesson of independence.he ate less in canteen but enjoyed bread meal in addition KFC he chosen.its an important journey for both of us in this week reunion. this dawn I dreamt one of CCP cadre in QRRS rarely respective, Zhou Kaiming, with whom I reached out for help when disputed with once departmental leader and been punished almost jobless, twice when I failed finding another job and returned to QRRS just after I left asylum. also to whom I asked to introduce girl Zhou, for whome I launched blogging after her departure from QRRS Dorms after her apprentice in her senior university year, to me but unavailable and absent at last graduate employee year end party I ever joined in QRRS back to 2009 or so.then dreamt my oldest nephew, son of my eldest sister, treated me well. he didn't help me much in real life.God, dad, the last gift in the pack to improve son's study and entertainment environment arriving, a google nexus 7 tablet. speed up delivery and break barrier to access google play store and other wonderful services. my son looking for it hardly, doesn't under-expect him. bring me sooner my Royal China to space my adventure promoting democracy in China, shelter sinking PRC and Chinese in God's shine. thx dad, after all these turbulence overseas purchases none failed me.

Aug 1, 2015

dreamt of strange marriage.::yesterday I visited my son as holy urged. I'm a bit loathing to do just after lunch but it turned out very productive. I first shifted my bankcomm credit card from woz to my own holding, now that he has another Postal Saving Bank credit card for daily usage. woz admitted it. than I turned talkative while my son writing his homework. I reported him recent interesting stories from news I read in the week, commented with my world view. I babbled almost 3 hours, till my son finished his homework and played video games alone. I urged him making good usage of new dell chromebook 11' touch. when his mom returned to home and drove us outdoor, I brought my son dined out in our favorite restaurant near railway station. I fed him while he busy on his android pad game. I told him merit of Japanese after I learned from watching Japanese TV soaps, unease life of scholarship disclosed from US TV drama, etc. returned to dorm, I myself wondered how much I narrative and resourceful as workout of my daily readings. the night I felt relentless. in dawn dream I dreamt one of my colleague who died in his mid-age when I worked for QRRS cable TV station. he is editor chief of the state-owned-enterprise cable TV, and almost famous within the company for his writing, for official statements, annual year end party and any enterprise cultural carnival anchoring speech. when I worked indirectly under his command, I sensed his bitter frustration as stalemate in career, lack of tech and engineering. he died overnight without any omen nor bedridden. he earlier divorced youth romantic lover then married another woman with a step daughter. his beloved daughter in his first marriage sent by him to China Liberty Army. when she left the service she settled in a middle size city southerner than Qiqihar but still in northeastern China. her wedding ceremony helped by most of her passed dad's former colleagues but not me. I narrowly avoided it among my jobless status in QRRS. I dreamt in dawn I married with the girl and same time married with another girl. my 2 family mirrors parallel in space. we had a boy and he is just smart and sound as expectation. the dream is vivid and lengthy but now I forgot most of it. next week my son will stay with me in my dorm, for his mom again travels.God, grant us a working chromecast which still blocked by China censorship from connecting and no functional. bring us sooner woz's new nexus 7 tablet which now stopped by customs after left Hongkong for more than a week. bring me sooner my Royal China to home my children and aging me.consolidate 2 bank credit limits from temporary to permanent. thx dad, in this silent morning.

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Tuesday, May 20, 2014

a year's plan in the summer time.

20/5/2014

an in time rain again. ^ last dusk I was chased by dogs. dirty old woman tried to defame me. in the night I should enjoy American TV dramas, but recent PRC banned lots of culture products overseas, claiming they against PRC's moral system. but I still find fun alone and idle. the rain didn't start when I went to bed, but in dawn its rhythm brought me dreams and peace. I dreamt as an intern in CCTV, PRC's assigned authoritative and dominative media. I interviewed by high rank cadre of the media tyrant & fear of clumsy. I indeed in dream of poor qualified, in fact felt miserably uncompetitive.then I did field survey of society, in minority area.a kid &his elder sister talk with us in their mountain village. they are funcy and cute. dad, God, so many burdens and hostility around my Royal China, so many protection U put us and stand us upright, God, I don't deserve a complaint for bareness nor dependence. the battle last long while I prone to homesick. God, dad, coming years more depressing in the economy as well as social and politics. God, guide me and my beloved through the warren and safe onto my promised land. God, dad, in this raining morning, with my girl Lyu's attending, I felt steady and inspired.

12/5/2014

a blessing rain from my girl Lyu.^ this week felt extreme lucky. I got my own 5 letters domain, zhone.mobi, for my long time used namespace for my family, an alias of oneizh for whose logo I designed years ago. during hard time of PRC's sliding low economy, I cling to concrete asset like the domain, with which I gathered courage to buy 5 years at once. my debt this month amounts to near ¥2000, but I felt easier since last sunny day and moisture days follow. this week also especially long for PRC public calendar shift labor day vacation and made the workweek 6 days. My son hesitated to me when we reunited. later he explained last week I blamed he didn't try new video games hurt him. we soon enjoyed together again, with lots of game playing. I treated him Dico's lunch after more than a month's break for hard economy. the weekend can't be more splendid. this dawn I dreamt first helping my 2nd elder bro rip ghost from his son or grand son.then dream on a train, usually most jamming and noise and dirty travel method, we occupied a small space,say kitchen, and cozy.after a meeting, one Guy, Xiu haitao, a big build Guy among my Qrrs colleagues once loaned me to pursue master degree in Nankai Univ back to 1999, gave up and left the kitchen with his baggage. when I got up to pee, I felt afraid of ghosts. I soon boot up for breakfast in canteen. the rain too beautiful to miss. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. help me stroll over the hard time in sinking PRC and its tyrant party. fetch back our leisure life style with dicos meal, and online shopping once a week or monthly. thx dad, God. secure my cyberspace assets and ease my concern of their security.

3/5/2014

dreamt exile. ^ First dreamt escape with General Chiang Kai-shek's army. Then dreamed with a German family. They live in the only tiny forest in Germany. their son tried to make friends during exile, make use of drug to feel better. his aunt, a girl, brings his parents to rescue him, forced his physical exercise in their yard. I liked the aunt in dream. after I scrabbled some of the dream and continued to sleep, I probed advantage of German. I played with the family, esp the father. Its a funny international labor day. my son expected it heartedly, for it includes movie "Captain America 2" in 3D cinema, steak lunch, visiting my dorm, and luxurious breakfast next morning in U.B.C coffee. it turned out really memorable. during the vacation I also claimed family 13th domain, riveryog.biz. its the only 8 letters domain we have. the .biz also enchants me so long. its all nice except hard finance weighted me lots. my eldest brother promised loan me ¥1000 while several days passed the tranaction didn't happen. I actually worried about draining out situation in my business. I hope I can break down barrier of debt, but it more and more shakes my confidence. God, I saw ur affirmative and uphold to it. God, dad, just let my work and life rolling like usual, smooth like deep river. God, I have lots to hope, but most in hurry is my Royal China. bring me sooner my girls, my Queens into my new family, and our children beautiful and gifted under new realm of my Empire of China, spans 1109 years follows.

24/4/2014

dreamed of being a graduate and in love with a girl Lyu. ^ in dawn dream I just after national graduate exam, and enrolled by Jilin University, an ivy league campus. my crushed girl Lyu also will study there the same year and only us 2 enrolled by the Univ. the term. my major is Cg, computer graphics and post effect, with parents, which odd in both eyes of girl Lyu and mine. my 2nd elder bro accompanied me to report in open season. he hurried me to sleep same bed in dorm with him but I felt queer & rejected. a little girl slept on a bed near me talking me while her grandma ordered her leaving. they beat each other. I tried to save the crying girl,then wake up. Girl Lyu loves me too.her major now forgot. when I met her among our classmates, I felt so sweet and so is she. in the end of dream, we got to know the campus is not in down town but quite rural. God, this month salary arrived lately, 200 more than March's. thx for the gift. we still in debt of ¥1000 and more. I hope I can fix it with my salary in coming seasons as summer can be busier season and brings more products ordered for the SOE, QRRS, my once and long time employer. celebrating the salary quite impressive. I bought my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, toast duck as planned, we enjoyed it so much. next day I bought him persimmons after knew he missing it. handing in subscription for boarding and fruits went also quite smooth. sometimes only experienced hard time before you know normal life and its costs so important to be sustained. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, my Queens, Asoh Yukiko, girl Lyu, girl Zhou, girl TW. thx for this blessing morning enacted me before 6am. thx for life comes so peaceful.

10/3/2014


From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires

Saturday, March 22, 2014

everlasting joy bewitches Royal China, among pitiful hard time now.

22/3/2014

happy reunion among harder economy.^ long expected March salary among gloomy PRC's economy arrived in pitch, dropped to 1400 CNY, in a sunny day. that put my routine life in blizzard, including weekends dine out, recent shopping online for replace son's shoes and our woolen pants, even my boarding subscription would go debt. after reviewed my situation, I buzzed my 2nd brother who recently rarely buzzed in after he saw my mobile in his contacts when trying an messenger app, yixin. he usually means for his life not always in his expectation, but I hope he saves this April of my family. in a vision, I felt enemies of my Royal China put my own in a test upon what I claimed, faith in God, in bright future of China as well as the world pilots my anchor next millennium. In last night dream when my son ported in my QRRS Dorms, my passed parents gathered with us unusually,talked about their times' tale, their nightmare when they young and green hand. that's something weird. then my son called me, in his dream or wake up. I answered him immediately. but he didn't responded. soon neighbor beasts knocked the paper wall heavily, like it insanely did all time, trying ignite my wrath of revenge. I calmed after efforts, let go old foe. then in dream when I visiting hometown village, Zhudajiu, national war called upon, duty of serving the army for every young men seeks even remote like the village. I was in the enlist.my sinful cousin with his sons visited me, discuss how to evade the crushing way ahead of a soldier. I felt in danger& panic, even know the cousin never kind, but I listened their sell. My son recently more turns quiet and resting. God, dad, relieve his burden upon debts I brought in the prospect of my Royal China of next 1109 years in eastern Asia. God, dad, bring hearted joy and laughter in his budding youth. thx, dad, here is my prayer ever answered today, in these blessing sunshines.

19/3/2014

a late heavy snow in spring 2014. ^ these days I seemingly lack of sleep. every morning I Wake up in time but each time lingering deep in dreams and merely sober mind when sit aside bed. I enjoy breakfast as usual, engaged with online free stuff like working bee. but every short moment when I leaned on bed I fall into nap soon. every nap likes a long journey before I return to earth steadily. this, esp this dust's nap lets me wonder how wonderful or awful my life is now. do I enjoy every reunion with my son, my most concerned, as usual? do I prepare for my absence on the earth for meeting my dad, God in Heaven now, in paradise soon or late? most workdays I was busy, prepared commencement of my Empire online and offline, stuff to make fun now and future. do I exhaust more or less? yesterday Its a sandy day, snow follows this noon and turns turbulent a beautiful scene. its also helpful for plants in spring, on the drying planet. I prepared more paypal accounts for my business, for purchases future overseas, esp in US. I was blocked from American goods so long, I despair want to be with them, including my recently bought chromebook via a taobao.com shop specifying shopping overseas. sooner US will dispatch my packages I orders online. that means freedom extends me more, comparing several years ago I had to ask Taiwan friend in cyberspace to buy me godaddy domains. I then even poorer than deserving a credit card. now I have my 1st credit card from CCB and transacted via it in past months for more than 5000 CNY. we harvested so many wonderful goods from online orders.
God, dad, this moment the dorm's power down abrupt. I was allowed to review my recent status, which so meaningful that I barely blogged. coming month still challenging, for I deficit 300 CNY now. dad, God, I live on u so many years with bare hands. looking forward, I see humors of life and wits in my soul uprising. thx, dad, God, allow me praying in this temporarily black out night.

14/3/2014

dreamed of Masayoshi Son. ^ these days saw and heard lots of QRRS young workers idled in dorm. some factories of QRRS shut down for no orders. gloomy economy also depressed me, while spending method opener and handier day by day. say, 2 Chinese logistic enterprises, stoexpress.us and sfbuy.com, open service for overseas shopping. 2 biggest e-commercial portal, alibaba and tencent, next week will offer e-credit card to boost Chinese expending online. the only prime is your wallet is filled solidly. last night when I told my son online the progress undergoes in nowadays PRC, he quit after sensed my anxious upon expanding unemployment and underpaid. this dawn I dreamt CEO of softbank, the Korean entrepreneur built his industry empire in Japan. I see how Japanese open over world culture and spices, tolerant to versatile products and alien races, inc popular social app, line again by Korean. I saw the greatest responsibility on Japan to guard democratic inherit since pilot of USA. Its a shinny morning, God, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my children, future of China on eastern Asia. God dad, show me way to meaningful and plenty. I saw the promise, God, thx.

10/3/2014

Dreamed again I'm in my wedding.^ recently life too beautiful to blog. everyday we made progress. in our shared moment, my son, warrenzh and me advanced among video games. we also chatted via sms a lot and that makes us understanding more each other. yesterday during shower in public spa, he first time fainted. with his pad he soon recovered and we ate bananas after returned to his mom's house. my son put so many affections on me that sometimes I felt terrified for the responsibility. but God, I have no choice, no dodging way to evade. I had to put all my life under God's shine, which so affirmative even among daily chores. God, bliss open my eyes wide for the mighty. don't let me down upon heroic inside me, in my Royal family.
this dawn I 2nd time dreamt in my wedding ceremony. my bride seemingly not the one I familiar, but proud as she is, and I was contented heartedly. her parents have firm hands over wedding affairs. I tried my best to make the ceremony gorgeous. in this dawn dream my childhood friend, Zhu Caigui, also from my hometown village Zhudajiu, in his wedding, too. I wake up around 6:30am and ate breakfast leisurely. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. Asoh Yukiko, attending our son and other children arriving closely. show warrenzh how to live in Japanese style. thx, God dad.
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires